love will save you, but it won't save me

you say you want to be there for me when I need you

you say you want to make me a better person

you say I'm better than this

you say you want to save me 

you say you'll be there to listen when I want to talk 

you say you know what will make me feel better 

but I don't want to need anyone

I don't want anyone to change me 

I don't want to change 

I don't want to be better

I don't need to be saved 

I don't want to tell you anything 

I don't think you know what I want

so stop holding your breath 

and please please please 

stop thinking & acting like yknow me 

you have no idea 

somedays I won't be able to swallow the poison working its way out of my throat and when you hear what I have to say, you won't be able to handle all the things I've done wrong. you'll realize I'm more work than you're willing to put into someone. after that, the closest you'll get to me will be occasional but unavoidable flitting thoughts of me. 

and sweetheart, when you think of me, you'll think of things coming unhinged and falling apart.