Silly

The way you did whatever you wanted,

despite the judgmental pricks around us.

The way you were hyper-aware of everything around you

including me. 

I watched you watch everything,

and I wanted to know all the things that went through your head 

when you were with me.

I saw you hurt

I saw you love

I will never be able to forget the way you simultaneously 

calmed my mind

and quickened my heartbeat.

I'll always remember the way you looked at me

and the way it drove me crazy

wondering what you were thinking as you did.

I'll always remember the way our hand fitted together. 

I know it's hard for you too 

you won't admit it 

but dear, 

In the 700 days spent with you 

I got glimpses of you no one else sees 

I am trying not to miss you too much.

I am trying not to regret letting you go.