Life is a series of 'yes's and 'no's;

sitting in a cafe at 7pm w coffee and a book - yes
waking up before the sun rises - no
late nights out with good company - yes
running out of coke in your fridge - no
semester breaks - yes
school - (arguably) no

it's an infinite list, you get the idea.

but there are exceptions,
there are shades of gray inbetween the black and white

you are amongst my shades of gray,
you're a maybe

Drifting Away

feeling good about myself recently -

for working on my flexibility & strength & dance & doing my work & volunteering & reading more & not feeling so lost w my responsibilities 

feeling bad about myself occasionally -

for choosing the things I love over the people I love 

(more often that I should) 

when did I become so apathetic to the people around me?

relationships take so much effort;

to be a true friend to someone takes constant meet ups,

constant updates,

constant sharing,

taking care of the person,

being in the person's life.

else it would turn into a meaningless friendship 

with shallow conversations,

forced interactions,

superficial updates 

& pretend interest in each other's business

I don't mean my "see you soon"s anymore

I don't mean my apologies anymore

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is this growing up or is this growing apart?