love costs all we are

"I held your hands

and felt the stars 

crackling beneath

your skin" 

I've been struggling 

to not let your apathy 

discourage my spirit 

but once again,

the residual sounds of 

your deep ragged breath 

disrupts the rare tranquility

of my mind 

and reminds me that 

love costs all we are

I wish I could get myself to 

pick up unaccustomed courage 

to ask if you could 

hold me against your good bones,

perhaps liberating me from the
entanglement of my bad thoughts, 

despite my ruptured trust

to keep my feelings safe with you