i'm starting to feel myself fall deeper
at first it was a small stumble
and then a steep anticipation
that has now lead to a stomach churning drop

i hope this wouldn't be like the last time
-
that me falling into a pit wouldn't mean you getting up, getting out & leaving
maybe this pit could fit both of us
or at least bring our cramped bodies closer

this is (has always been) scary (scarier now)
i'm scared without you
and i'm scared with you
i'm scared to drop this
and i'm scared of wanting this

what a terrible feeling to be scared
but what a poor life to not feel at all