may was a month of blue
it's an odd feeling waking up to stillness
when you fall asleep expecting to drown

I anticipated waves the height of my worry
but they crashed a beat later
and the rhythm of the current stirred only slightly
but it's terrifying to wake up with water
filling your lungs and muffling your hearing

when the ocean finally hit the shore
it was,
at the same time,
too terrifyingly fast and painfully slow

I wished I could have drowned instead
or atleast woke you up before water so callously did

may was the month i saw someone I love plunge neckdeep /
this story is about the time when
the birds were set free only to be handcuffed again in 13 days