Thank you

If we were still in contact I'd tell you

I was looking through old pics

listening to songs I used to listen to 

and stumbled upon one that reminded me of you 

and I'd tell you I miss you,

that I regret letting you go

i don't know if you read my blog but if you do,

thank you 

for reminding me every cca day to bring my waterbottle so I won't get a sorethroat

for bringing a jacket for me on rainy days without me asking for it 

for making sure I slept early

for the few pages long text messages all day long

for telling me it's okay

for staying up late that night with me although you were so exhausted

for taking care of me when I kept pushing you away

for never getting angry at me

for teaching me everything I ever wanted to learn

for guiding me and supporting me

for teaching me what it's like to care for people around me

for waiting ever so patiently for me to figure things out even though my conclusion wasn't you 

I'm sorry

for being oblivious to the many things 

you were sacrificing for me

I haven't gotten a chance to properly thank you, 

and I wish I did when it mattered.

I like you

I like the way you make me feel safe

as if

nothing and no one can ever hurt me

as long as I have you by my side

I've seen you stand up for people you care about

but it seems like I could wait forever

and still never be one of them 

I could be stranded in a parallel universe

and id still feel safer there w you 

than anywhere else w anyone else

I like you, I like you, I like you 

I like the way you make me feel,

in a subtle but certain kind of way.