Bad day/month/year/a decade/forever

So recently I've been really just feeling less than no motivation. It's lesser than anything you've ever felt. And honestly it's been screwing my life up.

I basically can't be bother with:
my studies
my friends (if I even have any left)
my family
every other commitment under the stars

And I really feel bad about it because its affecting others. Wouldn't care if I was the only one getting screwed.

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How absolutely selfish of me.

Just got off the phone w CT & i'm forever thankful for her retardedness, it cheers me up when i feel like hi5-ing everyone's faces.

But it's 12:52, the night's still young.
Waiting for when I think you're free to call you. And hopefully sleep well tonight.

All I want now is
you
you
you
you
you
you
you

remember when they used to have talks
in school about drugs and alcohol
and other dangerous things
that you were supposed
to stay away from?

well they never told us about
midnights spent with a boy
who makes your pulse race
or the overwhelming feeling
of waking up and seeing his face
in the morning

they forgot to warn me about you

and how it is even possible to love someone
more and more each day
is it okay?

to love someone as much as I love you

Routines

Late nights
Too early mornings
Lessons
Work to be done
Tuition lessons
More work to be done
Sleep
Very little sleep

And I can't see the end of this routine yet

But I remember
That there are still moments to spend with you.
That there are still late night walks home.
That there are Friday and Saturday nights.

It's still bad
But better.

Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me

This song reminds me so much of you.

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Settle down with me
Cover me up
Cuddle me in

Lie down with me
And hold me in your arms

And your heart's against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet
And with a feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now

Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We're falling in love

Settle down with me
And I'll be your safety
You'll be my lady

I was made to keep your body warm
But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms

Yeah, I've been feeling everything from hate to love from love to lust 
From lust to truth I guess that's how I know you
So I hold you close to help you give it up 

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We're falling in love all over again