;-)

For you and you ; thank you darlings for being so sweet, spending your time hating me. 

This is for you :-)

Love is

Love is unforced laughter.
Love is falling asleep to the rain.
Love is being able to share silence.
Love is receiving a smile.
Love is falling asleep in someone's arms.
Love is talking late into the night.
Love is falling asleep with no worries.
Love is feeling like everything will be okay.
Love is when someone acknowledges your effort.
Love is after a good swim.
Love is being alone but not having to feel lonely.
Love is sharing secrets.
Love is when someone knows you're not okay but doesn't say a word and tries to cheer you up.
Love is waking up to a goodmorning text or a belated goodnight text.
Love is hand written letters.
Love is a favourite movie.
Love is knowing that it'll be worth it.
Love is forever.
Love is experiencing something special for the first time.
Love is smiling to yourself.
Love is butterflies.
Love is sleep.
Love is good change.
Love is tears of joy.
Love is making someone proud.
Love is never leaving, no matter what.

Love makes everything simple.
Love is to be loved.

Lets just finish what never started

We met at the wrong time. Atleast that's what I tell myself anyway. Maybe one day years from now, we'd meet in a place only we know and we could give it another shot.

But I don't think it's the wrong time. Or the wrong person. It's the wrong feelings. This is fine, not emotionally supporting each other. But this means more to me that it does to you. My nothing means more than yours, if that makes sense. Cause you are nothing to me and I'm nothing to you. I dont know what you mean to me but I can't know. I'd rather let you be a 'what if' and as much as I hate having what's ifs, if I have to have one, it'd be you. "Felt the jones in my bones when you were touching me. You're replaying in my brain, finding it hard to sleep." My mind's telling me to go.

Lets just put it this way ; you make me happy. And that scares me.

And if we ever meet up again, just the two of us, I hope we would be able to not say a word to each other. Maybe just sit in silence for an hour or so, let me have a good look of you for the last time. Let it be our way of finishing what never started.

Exhaustion

I'm exhausted. Had such a bad sleep last night cause of my neck ache (ok I know I sound like an old lady). I'm so annoyed at my new pillow like HELLO IT'S TOO HIGH FOR MY SHORT NECK. But anyways that caused me to be angsty all day and even right now, at 11pm, I'm still not asleep. Yes 11pm's kinda early but no it's not what you think. I have been trying to fall asleep since 2pm in the afternoon. I'm so tired but my body won't let me sleep. WHY. It's like my eyes can't stay open much longer but when I close them, my brain won't shut up.

Bad night. Being upset over things that don't matter. But seriously, grow up. You don't know shit so stop acting like you do.

Enough said.

Bliss

Feeling oddly at bliss -

An icy cold cup of passion green tea w aloe vera sitting at the top of my table
My favorite music playing on the stereo
The night's still young
Shall get started w my work
Had a bad day exams wise
Having a little sore throat and cold
But i could get use to this feeling, really

4:51am

i don't like

the memories
because the tears come easily,
and once again I break
my promise
to myself for this day.

it's like a constant war between remembering and forgetting

"All that she could think was that she needed him. She needed his arms around her, needed him to hold her and whisper that they'd find a way to be together."

End?

Half way there

Done w 8/14 papers, 6 more to go.
Gonna diet my ass off I can't take it anymore.
No school tmr, yes.
Craving for pasta mm.
Hold on, I just mentioned about dieting.
I wanna sleep. And I shall.
Time's passing really slowly.
Unproductive day.
Unproductive will be an understatement, more like didn't do a shit.
Can we stay up tonight and talk non-stop?
Ofcourse we can't.
Studying has NOT paid off.
But then again I didn't really try that hard.
Bye bye elective history & pure geog.
To hell with homec paper. Feels like a waste of time seriously.
Oh silly.


"If your heart was broken you'd be dead so shut up."